Why you always must hang in there

So I took a few shots, apparently I play too loose and recklessly for the .5/1 and $1/$2 stakes
I chose to use a software called poker crusher, which is a game selection tool.
Although it picks the really soft tables, that doesn't mean you can change your play. I felt like with a really loose table that with an EP raise I could call with 99 and then there was 3 callers behind me. Button raises pretty big about 60% of my stack. Rather than sit in with the minimum like I had been doing I decided to sit in with twice the minimum. But After it folds to me I decide to move in, but I'm up against AA. If my opponent had put me all in I was still getting 1.5 to 1 on my money so I needed to be 40% to win, it was questionable but I think my opponent would move in with a strong ace at a loose table like this. My opponent with aces made sure to torture me, and say "AA" and then delay and delay and delay and then finally call. Then he berated me, saying "lol like 99 is always good"
I even thought there was a slight chance he would move in with AJ A pair 88 or higher perhaps. It was at a very crazy game, but I've looked at some potential range of hands, and I seem to be between 39% and 42% to win against various hand ranges.
I noticed myself angrier than usual. Before that I decided to take a shot in a $24 MTT and I just bubbled out. After that, it seemed like everything was either getting cracked, or KK and QQ running into AA, KK getting cracked by AA and even my AA got beat by ATs. In the tables where I took shots, I lost big to bad beats and bad luck (KK vs AA). I tried to play in $3 buy ins and I continued to bubble out, Never all in until the bubble, usually on a coinflip. Very frustrating.
Anyways, long story short I ended up donking all the way to $6 at one point. I decided to take $2 in the low stakes cashgame and just be pacient and I flopped top two from the big blind and doubled up and then the next hand I got QQ and I won a big pot and got my money in on the turn and doubled then left. Then I played in a $3+.3 and won like 1 or 2 bounties, but lost. I decided to do some more work and figure out if I was moving in too much or too little. I got Harrington on Holdem's endgame. And read a lot of it. I think that definately helped me change the way I think about the game. I think when the antes got involved, I played too tight. I think I played a little too loose in what Dan calls the "yellow" zone. So I went back to pokerstove, and calculated a lot of different situations where I'm in the small blind and it's folded to me, when shoving all in is profitable, and when to fold. And then I repeated the work from the button. I still think that just because it's profitable, doesn't mean that there isn't some "opportunity costs" by risking illimination, because there are several sitautions where you could shove all in and have positive EV, and more and more situations as you get shorter stacked... However, if you get too short stacked, you lose your fold equity, and your power to do anything else.
I made just a few minor adjustments. I played in a $3+.3 KO 90 person tournement with only about $8 in my account. And I wasn't picking up ANY hands, and my tables were loose so it never folded to me. I literally never played in a hand other than my big blind until the blinds were 100/200 and I had about 2500 in chips. I picked up AA and 3 people limped I made it 999 and was going to move in regardless of the flop. I think that with a bet of 999 some people might call and then another might move in and I can create a more profitable situation with even more dead money in the pot. It folded around and the last limper before me called. I then moved in on the J high flop and was called by AK since the pot was so big my opponent almost had to call.
less then a rotation later, I got AA again after a few limpers. I bet about 1200 and got called. The pot was 2800 and the flop was Q72. I bet 700 trying to get my opponent to check raise me. He folded. I think a check may have been better here since it's a flop where only AQ or 77 is going to call, and if I check I would induce a bluff and in that sized pot the bluff would probably be all in.
I changed tables after paying the small blind and got moved right on the big blind. And then the next rotation I payed the big blind and then got moved to UTG. It was very frustrating to have to give up so many blinds simply because of a bad table change. I moved in with 97s from SB, and KJ from the button against 2 opponents I had covered both times. Then I moved in with AK and got called by AK and split the pot. Was carefully watching my M and my opponents M and the average stacks "M". Didn't make too many moves on the bubble where I probably could have, although I certainly made a few. Then I made the final table.

It was really interesting final table, because half of the table thought i was pretty reckless since I made quite a few moves leading up to the bubble, and the other half saw me fold every single hand but 2 and both of them I showed aces. Unfortunately they were spread apart and the person It was really interesting 2 people who thought I was pretty reckless sat to my left.

My goal at the final table was to try to fold my way up some spots. I wanted my opponents to do all the work for me, and earn me some money. So I folded KJ in Midddle-late position. But I picked up AT and after a loose player who liked to limp a lot limped UTG+1 and I had AT and the pot was 13500 my instinct took over and 7 players remain. I couldn't help but move in for 28,369, and I took down the pot. Next hand 99 and I moved all in and took down the pot. I pretty much folded down to 4 players and picked up 99 in the SB and a player UTG moved all in for 26580 into a 12000 pot. I had about twice the chips he had, so I moved in over the top and he had J8 but he managed to hit a KJQ flop and no ten or nine to save me. So I was down to 21k and I moved in the next hand and got called by SB. I had AQ, my opponent had 55 2 hands later on my BB an opponent moved in on my BB for 39000. I had 45000. In my hand I had A7s. It was a fairly difficult decision because if I was wrong and lost, I would only have 10k. But if I folded, that opponent would now have ME covered, and I might not be able to fold into a better spot later. I felt like I was a favorite against my opponents calling range, but I certainly could be dominated. I made a call and my opponent turned over 36. I certainly didn't think I'd be that much of a favorite but I won the hand. Next hand my opponent in the big blind had an M of about 4, but it was 3 handed. I was the SB. I only had 24s, but from the work I did early I was pretty certain this was a correct push, although it was very scary to make.
My opponent made the call with A9 and although it looks bad I was actually about 39% to win, and most of the time my opponent won't have a hand that he can call with. but I did run into a hand, however, I managed to get lucky and win.
Heads up I got pretty lucky too, I raised with K2 from the button I got reraised, but the reraise was about 1/5th of my stack. I felt if I hit, I could build a big pot, but I felt that my opponent would check fold if he missed. So I made a loose call. The flop came KJ9 and my opponent lead out. I moved in and he called with AJ and I won and from there my opponent didn't have enough chips to do anything but continue to go all in and hope to get lucky multiple times.
Had I not moved down in stakes and grinded away, I never would have handled the bad runs, periods of mediocre play, and varience of bubbling.
That's why you always must hang in there and manage your bankroll properly

New Final Table Video of $3+.3 coming soon